Okay… so it’s been a good four months since I opened this blog. Haven’t been in the head space nor the mindset to write anything. I thought that it may be writer’s block… but I continually have ideas and thoughts that run through my head and think to myself “I should post that”. Truth be told, I’m tired. I’m exhausted – mentally and physically – and I just need to wait this out. Maybe having this update to post will be the catalyst that spurs on more posts. We will see. In the meantime, I vowed to myself that I would no longer chastise my lack of contact or news. No news is good news, right? and what a great segue for my next sentence:
I had great news yesterday… My appointment with the Oncologist was a positive one. Although my tumour markers have been rising steadily over that last seven months, my CT Scan showed containment. My favourite sentence is now becoming “no significant interval change”. Both the Oncologist and myself were more than pleasantly surprised – relieved would be my choice of words. So I am still on my “maintenance plan” as I like to call it. Steady as she goes.
There seem to be more rough days but these ones are different than what I have experienced in past. I have chronic pain now and they’ve confirmed that I have rheumatoid arthritis throughout my body. I am more scatterbrained than ever (hecklers at the back can quiet down now). All this will just be a new adjustment for me. Although I must be honest, it has been trying at times… (most times). Lack of sleep is a detriment to one’s mind. It causes postpartum in new mothers, it weakens the immune system, it messes with the cognitive and reactive times – physically and mentally. But that just means more reading and research to do and this too shall pass.
I am scheduled for bloodwork in early September and will see the Oncologist again mid-September. He has not ordered another CT Scan as he wants me to be off the radioactive syrup for as long as possible. He will monitor the bloodwork for now. In the meantime, I wish you all a wonderful summer. Fill it with laughter and love… peace and tranquility… memories and lunacy… take every opportunity to tell someone you love them… forgive the ones you don’t… and be thankful for every day that you are given.